For the past couple of years, I have been diligent about writing blog posts about any and everything, but mostly about love, love lost, obstacles and joys in my life, selling everything and moving to New York, and daily life lessons. I have written elaborate and long essays and...no one has ever seen a single one. Up until this point, I have been so afraid of sharing my writing with the world, including my friends, family, and those closest to me. Today marks the day that I have actively put that fear aside and have taken the first step into blogging by writing my first public post.
If you're my friend on Facebook, it may appear that I am an open book. But indeed, I am not. In fact, I have more secrets than you could ever dream. I take pleasure in sharing my flaws, because I have found that nobody including myself really likes someone who appears to have EVERYTHING together. There's that, and also, people can relate to other imperfect people. Because aren't we all trying to figure this "life" thing out? Today, I will begin sharing my inner thoughts in my blogs and begin to let my readers in to places that I've been so secretive about.
Please be forewarned: Though I am a person who takes a lot of risks and lives life as close to the edge as I can without coming up missing, I have many fears and insecurities, and though I have so much love and compassion, I am dealing with my own set of wounds. Welcome to my world. It's a rollercoaster filled with excitement and I-Can't-Believe-That-Just-Happened moments. My Good Days are are so fantastic that words will hardly be able to explain the joy I feel, and my Bad Days are literally Dark as Hell.
As for today, I am in Durham, North Carolina, on tour with Beautiful: The Carole King Musical. I don't know anything about this place except that Hog's Heaven BBQ down the street is amazing and people move reeeallly slow here. We have a show tonight, and I've never seen the theater, let alone stepped foot in it. We have brand new dressers, musicians, crew members, and a new backstage area. So, tonight should be pretty interesting. Hectic probably. And you know what? I am so freaking excited. Let the good times roll.